Super Mom, Super Wife, Super Tired...

Soul mates

I was reading something earlier, it talked about soul mates and how there is that ONE special person out there to love you. I dont believe that.

Let me explain:

I believe in the concept of soul mates. In fact I believe that my husband and I are soul mates. However I dont think you have ONE person out there for you. I also believe that soul mates dont have to be your life partner. I think straight women can have female soul mates and straight men have male soul mates (Though they would probably not use that term) and that hetrosexual men and women can be soul mates and not be together or that homosexuals can be soul mates and not be in a relationship.

I think the term “soul mate” more entails the fact that you have a deeper connection with that person than with others. If there is only one person out there for you what happens if that person dies? Do you never remarry, if you do does that mean you dont love the next person as much because your soul mate died?

If for some reason Paul divorced me or something tragic happened, I would hate to think I could never find someone else. Would it be the same as Paul, no. No one would ever be the same. Does that mean I could never love someone else as much as I do Paul, I dont think so. It might take time, but there are lots of people whose significant other passes away or leaves- whatever the case may be- and they go on to find someone who they love just as much.

So as for soul mates, I think it is a real thing. It just doesnt mean that one person who you marry and spend you life with, that there is no one else you will ever have a connection with, that you only have ONE soul mate.

A day off?

How does a mom get a day off? Why can’t I call in sick, I am sick- sick & tired of doing it all! I just want a few hours for myself.

I want to go to Target & shop for bras without my kids swinging from the rack, or pulling panties down & flinging them to the floor.

I want to go to Sonic & get a Diet Coke without having to A) buy the kids a drink they will just pour all over themselves B) explain to them the drink they are currently drinking is fine & they dont need a new one C) tell them that we just ate & that they are now EATING goldfish & do not need tater tots.

I want to go to the store without having to go to the bathroom 3 times, or look at toys, or re stack toys that they just pulled down.

I want to take a nap & go to the bathroom by myself- without worrying what they are destroying.

Is that a lot to ask?

Tagged: Mom day offkidsSAHM

Disneyland!

Working on planning our trip to Disneyland, not sure WHEN we are going but probably around October. I REALLY want to go for Halloween Time. Because, well, what could be better than Disney & Halloween? Anyone have any tips or suggestions?

Not so super…

Today I am not feeling so super. I am depressed & crying. I dont want to feel this way but I do. I havent been on my anti-depressents in over a month because I am tired of being fat & the zoloft makes me gain weight, and gaining weight makes me more depressed- it’s a vicious, yet endless loop. So couple no zoloft with the fact that my husband changed jobs, is at work before God gets up & is ready for bed before the kids are & my stress levels are through the roof. Now his hours are changing & he will be working afternoons into the night so he wont be here for dinner & getting the kids to bed. So now Im stressing about how I am going to handle it all. Plus I work, I dont know how his work schedule is going to affect mine but I am going to see him almost never & my poor oldest child is going to be asked to handle more than her share of responibility.

I keep trying to tell myself “There’s a great big beautiful tomorrow, shining at the end of everyday” but it doesnt seem to be working…